Happy medium?

•July 4, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Hello blog world.


I will never understand males. This has been presented in front of me, and this is how it is.


No matter how pretty, smart, funny, quick, outgoing ect, that you are, you will never be quite good enough.


After over a week of wishing and hoping for a little attention, it does seem few and fair between from this person, which is unfair, considering the words that have been spoken to me about “feelings”

Even “im sorry” just doesnt cut it. Prove it.


But then by wishing this prove it would happen, is it making me seem like a needy and controlling person?


is there really no happy medium?



dum de dum

•June 25, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Hello blog world


Seems no ones into the blogging thing anymore, life goes on.

Been a busy bee myself. Work work work. It never ends, welcome to adulthood.

The humidity today is killing me, so i figured i’d sit infront of the computer, fan blowing at my back and debate this boring life i live.

Im currently back to working 6 days a week, because my employer loves me. which is a blessing and a curse, all i wanted to do the last 6 days was it on my ass and do nothing, now. im bored beyond belief.

I really have nothing to chit chat about. was going to express my loss of faith in mankind, but for once in my life.. its to hot to bitch


•May 4, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Hello blog world

Just a drunken message.

Took a few hours to kick in, but everyone i thought i could trust… i cant.

What a fucked up feeling,

Dark side of me

•April 9, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Dark side of me

Hello Blog World.

Found this song.. wanted to share it.

much love

Tweet Tweet

•April 2, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Hello blog world.

A few things to share today if i can make if fully through this post without stopping. so far not looking so well. and i wonder why im typing all this out if i get lazy enough not to post it.. no one will ever read it. I make myself laugh sometimes.

First thing on the agenda. New tattoo. Been about 3 years now. I think i’m over due. have quite a few idea’s. two for sure jump into my head.  First is i want to get my favorite quote done. But a shorten down version of it. And i wanted to get it in English, but the idea of having writing on me in a foreign language makes my insidey parts warm and tingly . so I’ll just keep doing that instead. the next is i found these two simple little birds. nothing fancy. just little black birds. and desided i HAVE to have it. So. Easy – 2 ideas. Next part. Where to put them!?!?!

I have ideas. im THINKING the birds, on the back of my arm, above my elbow – for something different. and the writing on the other side of my ribs. That should even me out then maybe my mild case of OCD will finally calm down and i can go back to living every day life. maybe. haha

Now in order to motivate myself to get a new tattoo i want to get back on the weight loss track. so far also a fail. Ever since i came back from the lovely cuba i cant be bothered doing ANYTHING besides sitting on the computer and picking my nose (ha.. see what i did there!?) so i need some motivation.. and someone to keep me away from chocolate.

Then i go through this

Brain: sarah you’ll never get ahead in life if your a blob stuck in a computer chair!

Me: Fuck you brain, you dont know what your talking about. more of me to love mother fucker

Brain: okay okay.. just put down the bag of candy and we’ll talk about this like adults


And thats when i realize im arguing with myself. And the fact i know my brain is right, because its my brain – and im just making myself look stupid. what makes me look more stupid is im fighting every urge in my body to not go to Walmart to get these little berries cover in chocolate that i would eat untill i vomit i love them so much.

Maybe i’ll get up and do something now.



Thought of the day.

•March 21, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Hello blog world.

Is it selfish of me to not want a boyfriend who already has kids….?



•March 15, 2013 • 1 Comment

Hello blog world.

I am back and will update as soon as i’m not so tired.

till then, heres a purdy cuba picture!